Pressing the Pause Button

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I hate to do this. Believe me, it’s the opposite of what I want. But forces outside of my control are pulling the strings, and I have no choice but to submit to their demands. That’s why I’m announcing today that I’m going on hiatus from freelancing and content creation to focus on my health.

I’m taking a break from holchasaur.

As many of you know, these past seven years have been a roller coaster for me. I’ve went from being able to medicate and largely ignore my gradually-declining health, to being bedridden for consecutive days with no mental or physical strength to be productive. Occasionally, I have a month or two when I swear things are balancing out, only to suddenly and unexpectedly plummet to the worst I’ve ever felt – and “the worst I’ve ever felt” is quickly becoming the norm. There’s just no predicting the pattern of ups and downs anymore.

Though I can still work through bad days to some extent, I’m not doing my best work, and projects require much more time and effort than they should – extra time, effort, and stress that’s having an adverse impact on my health. That’s why I need to walk away for a little while. I need optional commitments and responsibilities off my mind. I need only to worry about getting healthy – about seeing doctors and specialists, getting tests, and not postponing any of it because of other distractions. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve put off scheduling a test or appointment because of a project or review deadline. I can’t allow that to happen anymore. I simply can’t afford it.

Does that mean I’ll entirely refrain from producing content? Not necessarily. If I feel the urge to write, stream, or record, and it occurs naturally, without being a burden, I’m not going to stop myself. The process of playing, writing about, and talkin’ video games (and other forms of entertainment) is a major passion of mine, and I don’t know what I’d do if it were removed from my life completely. It’s just best if you keep your expectations in check and it’s best to expect nothing, just to be safe. It’s been months since I’ve regularly pumped out content anyway, so most of you are likely accustomed to the lull by now.

So, how long will this “hiatus” last? It’s impossible to say, really. Hopefully not too long. I have another round of medical tests fast approaching, and I should know more when I receive the results. The bad news is that we’re still sidetracked by the blood clots that resulted from my splenectomy, and that’s been keeping us from looking deeper into what’s really going on in my body. But things are getting worse, and fast, with nary a diagnosis in sight. Doctors are finding problems but can’t connect the dots. The whole situation is a befuddling mess.

But this isn’t the time or place to get into all the specifics. It’s just too much.

To be clear, I’m not disappearing from social media. I like you people. I enjoy reading your tweets and interacting with you. Some of you have, without a doubt, brightened some particularly dark days, and that’s certainly something I’m incredibly thankful for and have no desire to walk away from. So, obviously I’ll remain active on Twitter and share my opinions on life and the usual entertainment-type… stuff. Honestly, due to the inevitable boredom that will surely ensue from the lack of work, I may tweet more than ever. That said, I should apologize in advance for any poor grammar, frequent typos, or incoherent blabbing – my current medication regimen intermittently turns my brain to mush, and in those moments, articulation and eloquence aren’t my strong suit.

At this point, I believe that’s about all there is to say. If you have any questions or just want to chat, you can reach out on Twitter @holchasaur. I might be slow to respond, but I’ll see your tweets and messages, and I’ll reply when I can. Same as always.

Thanks for your understanding and all the support you have given me throughout these turbulent years. I hope you’ll still be around when I can get back on track.

Best,

Dave Letcavage

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Pressing the Pause Button

Welcome to holchasaur

If you’re here for links to my work and contact info, dive to the bottom of this post.

Dae and Bae - holchasaur

Hello there, intrepid explorer of the internets. Welcome to holchasaur. My name is Dave Letcavage, and I’m known by a few people for covering video games, which I usually do in a semi-professional manner. Barring a lengthy absence from the scene during 2017 for a major surgery, I’ve been doing this thang for over half a decade now. At this point, I guess it’s safe to admit that I like it.

*insert that shrugging emoji here*

Before we get to the specifics of my work, you might be wondering, “What’s a holchasaur?” That’s a fair question. It’s a weird word. First, say it with me once: “hole-cha-sore.” That’s it! You (probably) nailed it! Pat yourself on the back. You’ve officially accomplished something today. Be proud.

But back to the point, holchasaur is my personal brand or moniker (or whatever you want to call it) that serves as sort of an umbrella for my independent work and projects. Its origin stems from the nickname of my beloved dog Holly, who passed away in 2016, and it’s a tribute to the profound impact she had on my life (a long story for another time). I even created the holchasaur logo, a silhouette of a dog-dinosaur hybrid, not just to coincide with her nickname, but to communicate both her frisky spirit and the brand’s playful nature.

Here’s an actual photograph of Holly, so that spongy thing protected by your skull (I forget what it’s called) has a real-life image to associate with the brand name and logo.

Damn, do I miss her…

But let’s get focused here. Let’s get to business.

When it comes to the holchasaur “umbrella,” I’m currently running a YouTube channel and podcasting (holchasaur Audio Series and Wife Plays Bloodborne), and I’m also gearing up for a return to livestreaming in the not-so-distant future. You can find an organized list of all those links at the bottom of the page. There’s more going on behind the scenes, but none of it’s concrete enough to divulge just yet.

Besides my own nascent DIY “indie” projects, what else do I do? Well, I type up these word things, arrange them into sentences and paragraphs (much like I’m doing now), and then have the resulting mess published to various websites. You can primarily find my writing on Nintendo Life, SIFTD, and Pure Xbox (where I was the Reviews Editor for three years), with more sites to be named soon – very soon. I mainly focus on games criticism and reviews, but I also vomit up the occasional fluff piece or emotionally-resonate story when the mood strikes.

Oh, and for a short while I was partially responsible for this wacky CobrainOnGames stuff.

Yeah, I’m something of a versatile, guy. I’m even dabbling in comic book, music, and toy coverage soon. Fortunately for me, the amount of talent I’m able to feign is just sufficient enough to entertain a handful of people and convince editors that what I’m presenting them with is genuinely compelling.

I was in sales for a few years, so I’m pretty decent at it, actually.

When it comes to this website itself? It mostly exists to communicate this information to you. In the future it may blossom into something else, something more, but there aren’t currently any specific plans for that. At the very least, I’ll do my best to make sure the deets contained here are up to date. Scout’s honor.


LINKS, CONTACT INFO, AND WORK AVAILABILITY

Contently: My Portfolio (Links to all my work in once place)

holchasaur Projects: YouTube, SoundCloud (Podcasts)Twitch

Social Media: Twitter

For all business inquiries: dave@holchasaur.com

For the most part, I find my own work. But if you’re interested in hiring me for… something, use the email above. I prefer to operate in a freelance capacity, but a remote staff position is something I’d be open to if the opportunity made sense for both of us. Though I should admit, I won’t write news. Don’t even ask. I’d rather watch tween reaction videos on YouTube on repeat for DAYS straight – kinda like that disturbing aversion therapy scene in A Clockwork Orange – instead of regurgitating text from press releases day in, day out.

Where’s the fun in that? For me, there just isn’t any.

Developers, publishers, and PR people, you can also reach me at the business email address provided above if you want to talk game coverage. Feel free to send me your press releases, games (ask first if it’s a PC game), trinkets, and promotional items, but I warn you now, I cannot be bought. I will cover your games and merchandise with 100% honesty regardless of the luster of the package and the goodies contained within. I value integrity over the almighty dollar. I know, I know – it’s a crazy concept in this age of YouTube and influencers, but that’s just how I roll.

The rest of you – friends and readers and viewers and such – can holler at me on Twitter @holchasaur. I’m always open to talking games and entertainment and life, and it’s the best way to stay current on my content output.

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